"She paints her fingers with a close precision, he starts to notice empty bottles of gin
and takes a moment to assess the sin she’s paid for a lonely speaker in a conversation, her words are swimming through his ears again, there’s nothing wrong with just taste of what you paid for, say what you mean tell me im right and let the sun rain down on me give me a sign"
that's the way of starting a post well idk so hi. Ah~ why i am so messed-up these days. Sorry guys for any sarcastic response, for any annoying act, for any rude behaviour. Idk what has happened to me maybe this is one of the results of my high depression. I can't blame anyone. It's not you guys fault, it's not his fault and i realized too it's not even her fault. Basically, it's my fault for having a crush on him, for dreaming, for wishing, for all this nonsense and ridiculous wishes that one day ... k i don't want to finish this sentence.
Ah sometimes, i just feel like i hate everyone. every single person. friends, closefriends, bestfriends, and even strangers too. WHAT HAPPEN TO ME?
why you ask yourself sha,
when you, yourself don't know how to answer that kind of question.
why you being so complicated?
why aishah nurfitri?
This isn't the old you, this is totally not the old aishah.
why you change?
because of who?
and why you decided to change?
AH STOP QUESTIONING YOURSELF!
you know what yourself have discover from this changing process of yours?
No? HAHAHAHAHAHA lemme tell you
First, kau suka marah marah tanpa sebab sekarang
Second, you treat everyone like a crap nowadays
Third, you don't care anymore about people feelings
Fourth, you judge people like you're so fucking perfect
Fifth, why be so emotional these days
Sixth, kau jauhkan diri from everyone.
Seventh, you dislike people for no reason
Eighth, you started hate evryone even they don't do anything to you.
Ninth, you annoy your closest, your bestfriend.
Tenth, you get jealous easily even you have no right to do so, and you keep complaining about you crush's girlfriend, what did she do and how did she act. you're just so complicated ah aishah nurfitri.
Hah cukup lah sepuluh, kang aku list banyak banyak menangis kau. Change to the old you ah, life was easier when you don't even give a fuck to the opposite sex. Heh you once dislike boys right, yeah you still do but a 'he' just change your principal drastically. Boooo yourself lah weh, wake up ah wake up don't you feel like a loser everytime you complained about their relationship? Cakap tak sesuai ah, tak okay lah wth jealousy controls your action, your mind now! Why talk bad about people when you just want to make yourself feel good?
SEDARLAH. BANGUNLAH. BERUBAHLAH. INI BUKAN DIRI AWAK YANG SEBENARNYA. PERUBAHAN TU TAK SALAH, TAPI KALAU KEPADA KEBURUKAN, HM NO. JUST BE THE OLD YOU. LOTS OF PEOPLE CAN ACCEPT YOU JUST THE WAY YOU'RE. NO NEED TO CHANGE JUST TO PLEASE OTHERS.
