#23 SHUT THE FUCK UP

I’m the type of person, who likes to keep everything bottled up. I’m not the type to just break down in front of everyone. I like to put on a fake smile to let everyone know the person outside is smiling, while the person inside is hurting. Then, when I’m finally alone, that’s when I can let everything out. Explaining myself is just too hard, I’d rather be alone and cry, rather than explaining myself while crying.

I got tons of problems, struggles and breakdowns. Sometimes I wonder why on the earth, Allah chose me to go through all this test. I'm not a tough person and I need someone to depends on. I'm just an immature and childish kid. Don't treat me like I'm an adult who can take care of myself. I still need someone to lean on. And one thing that dissapoint me a lot when I'm being judged by people who don't even know and close with me. Don't open your mouth to judge me or trying to give me advice unless your life is perfect and you know me well. Don't simply accusing and judging. Have some respect towards me lah. You don't know what I've been going through everyday, no one will understand so please make me less burden by understanding me. If you can't even be an angel to shine my day, at least please don't be a bitch who will always piss me off everyday.

I'm not posting this to get sympathy or what bcs I know there's just a few of people who read my blog anyway but please, don't make any judgement or talking craps about me. I'm just to tired with all this drama. Enough is enough. Well said.