#62 I FEEL LIKE A LOSER

Hm you know the feeling you get when one of your friends told you that your crush is in a relationship with one of your schoolmates? K so the question is if you were me, what will you do to face this situation and how will you act? facing your schoolmate everyday and act like you don't have any feeling towards him, then when you got home you'll go online your facebook account and stalk his and his girlfriend's profile everyday and read all the sweet lovey dovey coments, wallposts and status and you are in front of the computer, your hand are all shaking and you're just speechless and at that moment your jealousy controls your act, your decision and controls your everything but you can't do anything because you don't have any right to do so as you and him are and never have any special relationship going on between you two since at the first moment you meet him.

This is so asdfghjkl qwertyuiop moment. I don't even know how to describe what i feel now. This is seriously beyond complicated, even i once told you that i admire blacklist like SO MUCH for almost three years blabla but i never feel this jealous, this kind of jealous everytime i see him with other girls but this what the hell lah why lah why lah why lah why lah. Janganlah buat aku rasa loser gila stalk profile kau hari hari and earned nothing but just a bunch of useless feeling, the type yang "bercampur aduk" punya perasaan tu ah I HATE THIS.

WHY YOU? WHY MUST BE YOU? KENAPA KAU? KENAPA MESTI KAU? SERIOUSLY, WHY?

i can accept lelaki lain buat mcm ni, tapi kenapa mesti bdk cool yang tak layan perempuan macam kau? maybe you two memang suits together kot, bak kata maie, tak baik kacau rumah tangga orang LOL ._.